Part of the purpose of this blog is to store my mind somewhere. I cannnot kill Her image, but I probably cannot live with it either. That is, She probably cannot live with it being too pronounced, so must I store it somewhere. I'm storing it here. To store my image of Her, I have to store myself, and then how She interacted with me. It's important! Before I met Her, I was thinking about killing myself so often I had a mood tracker that was really just a suicidal intensity scale, and it would get filled out pretty often with meaningful data. Now, I mostly just input that I'm not killing myself every couple days because it's really not even worth the app open to say that it's been a normal day. I can't be sure how much of that is Her, but I do think She saved my life, and that's beautiful. That has to be saved somewhere. Maybe I can unload this here to this blog, and load Her image again another day when I need it, when She needs it.