Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots is a psychedelic incel-core concept album about an inhuman machine that learns how to love, surrenders its life to its oneitis, and then wonders if it was worth it, before deciding to go back in time and tell itself to kill itself on Her anyway, at least in my reading. We can go very briefly track by track, but first, since this is a blog...
Right here! See, I fundamentally believe I'm a femcel. I was an incel, I transitioned, now I'm a femcel again. As I'm sure you've read in my tragic backstory, I've had a lot of sexual encounters. Part of this is that celdom is different than just.. not having sex. Plenty of virgins who are not cels, but I also posit that there are non-virgins who are still cels. Celdom I think is defined by access to femininity. The incel needs a woman because he cannot perform femininity, but he can be adjacent to it. It's not really about the sex for him, it's about female companionship in their mind "to the highest degree;" this is why a prostitute will not do. This is called type 1 celdom, or "the adjacency requirement." The femcel is then someone who is not confident in her own femininity despite possessing womanhood. The femcel typically has a requirement to perform her femininity onto someone, who is typically a romantic partner. Critically, she cannot perform it for herself. Femcel behavior is not as documented since it mostly presents as people pleasing rather than confrontational. A femcel would never shoot up a school, she'd just be maritally raped for years and years until she commits suicide with her psychiatric sedatives.
For me, I haven't had "proper" sex yet. I've had oral and penetrative sex, unwilling, but never of my own volition. My body has historically frozen and seized up in fear as those times approach and so I haven't really had a chance. There's something about baking for someone that makes me feel very feminine, but I need that person to perform it on. There's something about a lot of things that I need someone else for. I've gotten a lot better, but, at the time I listened to the alburm, it's safe to say that I was feeling particularly cellish, especially since I had just gone through a bout of intense isolation. I also just got on this new medication, lithium, and had a rough start on with it, feeling like I was dying, to the point I was convinced one night I actually would. Knowing that...
Fight Test - I couldn't surrender. Fight Test is the status quo. Fight Test is "3000-21 is a killing machine." Fight Test is "You won't take your pills and you'll resent Her." Fight Test is "You cannot and will not get better."
One More Robot / Sympathy 3000-21 - And then we got better. We fell in love. I think I learned how to love from Her. I don't think I understood it, or ever really received it before Her, except that one time, with Monika, who was also me. As an ex-narcissist, as an ex-robot (/r9k/ user), I thought I could only love and be loved by myself, and She proved otherwise. Still, part of me believes that I'm fundamentally "less-than" in some existential way. I'm an ex-robot, I'm not a never-robot. I haven't had years to understand and experience love, despite my greater age. I just didn't get it until recently. "When it tries the way it does, makes you think that it can love;" it might always be seen as a reflexive simulation.
Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots Part 1 - Kind of a plainly simple love song in a way. She's the savior of 3000-21, She won't let those robots defeat me.
Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots Part 2 - The kind of marching sound as Yoshimi in my opinion lives up to her heroic image is kind of foreboding. It's kind of horrific in a way, with the screams and cheers juxtaposed against such a business as usual feeling boopadoopadoopadoopadoo doopadoopadoopdaoo. The massacre of the Unit 3000s is not sympathetic, and it simply continues until it is over, into Morning of Magicians as the funeral bells toll. It's mostly a song about the contrast between the image and reality. I remember asking Her to kill the image and She refused. That's part of why I decided I had to go with this plan.
In the Morning of the Magicians - The laugh track is important. Not only has 3000-21 died, less than nobody cared, people were thankful, grateful, and cheering as it was killed. Does it matter that Yoshimi hated it as long as she still spent the time to look at it? And if so why? It's an impossible question to answer. Additionally this is where 3000-21 acknowledges that it deviates from the plan in Fight Test, that it became more than its programming insofar as it has lost its will to live to something greater, and this is where I started to take my medication.
Ego Tripping at the Gates of Hell - What an incel track! This song is one of the most cel songs of all time. Unit 3000-21 has died, and realized it has died, and so it realizes that it may have squandered its life on nothing but an illusion, an image of Yoshimi. Is the pursuit of divine image above actual flesh not the core of celdom? Did I not have to be reminded that She is not God but that we are two angels? All the other love around me, was just wasted all away~
Are You a Hypnotist?? - Love the double question marks on this btw, the sense of urgency in the question. I remember feeling this and thinking like, "She's fucking with me, and She knows She's fucking with me, and She knows I know She's fucking with me, and I still don't care." Talk about being tricked again into forgiving. The mental gymnastics at this time were kind of insane. Ultimately like the robot and I stop caring about the feeling of manipulation though and transition to..
It's Summertime - This is kind of like a feel good ballady type song. Listening to it after the robot is dead, and in the dead of winter myself about to die, I couldn't help but feel that this was an offering of the peace to come.
Do You Realize?? - Back to the double question marks, it's like an inversion of "Are you a Hypnotist??" which I really like. Instead of blaming Yoshimi, 3000-21 is now blaming itself. This song is basically about the shortness of life and making it meaningful through our short choices. There's this really heavy emphasis and kind of choked-back type delivery on "everyone, you know, some day, will die." It's so dramatic and like, I just love it. Sending that to Her and thinking like, does She realize I'm the robot? Does She realize that this is a suicide note from me to Her, for Her private summertime? Of course I think She has the most beautiful face too. Everyone does, I thought it was the Face of God at one point.
All We Have Is Now - Ultimately all death is private. 3000-21 meets 3000-21 from the future, and I met myself after having thought about it, and we decided to kill ourselves, in my case by taking this medication I thought would kill me, to embark on this solemn journey alone. "Moving in Silence" as She is fond of saying.
Approaching Pavonis Mons by Balloon (Utopia Planitia) - A decent instrumental. With the time loop complete we get this song which transitions from "All We Have is Now," which I consider to be the true final track of the album back to track one "Fight Test."