The easiest way for an insecure trans woman to get validation is to fuck a heterosexual man, easiest way to fuck a heterosexual man is to find an incel, easiest way to find an incel? 4chan. So, for reasons unspecified, after being dumped by my last e-bf for "feeling like he's grooming me," I quickly decided I needed to find another older man to be sexually subservient to. Enter the 4chan healslut thread. I advertised myself as a new player to FFXIV, basically ready to get groomed again, and someone, Orpheus Nilus, took an interest. We were RP married I believe, but I had extreme character bleed. See, I was only trans on the internet, only he knew my name out of anyone in the world. I existed in Eorzea, I gave my Elezen White Mage my face, my height, my weight, everything. He quickly became everything to me. We did some dungeons together, lived normal lives, I made him breakfast and such in his house, until he, the Paladin, took a pull too big on Tam-Tara, an early dungeon. He died. He died, and let me know that it was all my fault. I had played for several days at this point desperate to seek out this new world, to seek out myself. I was too invested to simply "x" out, to do so would be mental, and likely subsequently physical suicide. Instead I was forced to rp my own rape, specifically against my list of "no"s, which was actually honestly worse than all the times I've been actually physically raped because those merely continue until they are over. They were marital rapes and date rapes, but not like this: he relished in my pain. I could tell he was getting off on making me, the real me, suffer, making me describe how awful I felt as I sobbed onto my keyboard because it would not end until I pleasured him enough; it continued and continued until I gave him everything he wanted with the most vulnerable part of my soul to the only man who really knew me. After the Tam-Tara situation, I luckily had something else lined up IRL.
Orph was not satisfied. He wasn't getting off without me to stroke his ego. He let me know effectively that I was a stupid bitch that deserved everything terrible and if there was any character bleed, maybe it'd teach me to stop being such an idiotic cunt, but really it's just a game. Anyway, he needed my permission to get this new girl Cinnamon while I was gone. She seemed sweet enough and okay, if he's put out while I'm away then... then sure. I just didn't want to know about it. Turns out there's a lot I didn't know, since he had a whole harem, and they didn't know about me, and I didn't know about them. I was his special pet project. I slept at his mansion in his bed every night. My wifedom was a little more real than I think he wanted to let on. Still, he let me know about Cinnamon for a reason, he wanted me to know there was an "other woman." He wanted me to know I could be replaced and that he was cheating on me, and there's nothing I could do.
The miquote was masturbating in MY bed. Well Orph told her to "go home" and she went to his house, my house. He knew. He knew where she would go, and he told her to go and told me to go there to see her. It was all cleverly orchestrated to see embarrassed cat bush and make us fight each other. Instead I crashed out on 4chan. We both did. He called me deranged and I think tried to dox me, or threatened to dox me? He had pictures of my naked body with my name, address, and degrading things written all over. Our fight was public, I think he got temp banned for like 6 months, he lost his harem, and doesn't post on healslut forums anymore, at least under that character name. Shortly after this I met my next e-bf, which was great. He had a cuck fetish and that was terrible once or twice, but genuinely, he is such a nice guy. He changed my life around for the better, and I still own the dog collar I bought myself to pretend he gave me.